repertoire of soliloquy.

2010-04-01T00:03:00.002+08:00

i don't know if i've read this shit somewhere or seen it somewhere on tv or some sort but maybe, just maybe, the more afraid we are of losing something, the more our actions/behaviours will contribute to making that fear a reality.ah fuck my life.

2010-01-07T16:27:00.002+08:00

it's just weird how we forget things over time.i remember there was a time when i used to be able to doodle, to draw, to paint.seems like i could neither do any of those these days. it's almost like losing a part of myself.maybe the day will come when i'll simply forget how to breathe or how to live.maybe that's what death is.we simply forgot how.

2009-12-31T11:23:00.000+08:00

It has been my experience that folks who have no vices have very few virtues. - Abraham Lincoln

2009-12-28T14:36:00.000+08:00

this is the time when your insecurity about everything would just eat you from the guts out.i feel so small.so weak.

2009-12-24T20:52:00.001+08:00

because one day i will be gone.

2009-12-08T22:42:00.001+08:00

she died last night.

2009-12-07T21:53:00.002+08:00

2009 sure as hell did not end on any good note at all. all i could think of on my mind these two days is the scene of my rabbit lying there twitching from the pain and shock it had gone through. i do not know if it can still see because it rarely moves and even if it moves, it only makes small little movements from one corner of the box to the other.it ain't comforting at all even after the visit

2009-12-06T03:03:00.002+08:00

came back to witness probably the greatest tragedy that has ever happened on my porch.my dog pried open the rabbit's cage and attacked it. we probably were out the whole time and came back only to see rabbit laying there motionless. my heart sank when i saw her lying flat on its stomach but i was glad it was still breathing, albeit very weakly.i have no idea how serious the wounds are because i

2009-07-16T23:18:00.001+08:00

Hi XXX, I am XXX from Prudential. I would like to meet up with you to do a financial plan for you, but could not get through your number. i think you wrote your mobile wrongly..because it has 8 numbers..do drop me a mail and let me know when you will be free to meet up. Best regards,XXXSenior Financial ConsultantPrudential Assurance Co.erm. who has more than 8 numbers for a mobile? god. how could

2009-04-16T12:16:00.002+08:00

well, i'm not exactly trying to get all too political around here but this is probably just a random thought arising from all the expository regarding the recession and what-nots in Singapore.the government has always maintained their stand that the high renumeration paid out to the ministers is to retain top talents within the public sector. seriously, how good are these people at the helm? how

2009-03-12T00:57:00.002+08:00

THIS IS FUCKING INSANE.--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------March 10, 2009Church raises $19m in 24 hrsNEW Creation Church raised a whopping $19 million for the construction of its new premises at Buona Vista - in less than 24 hours.In a show of support, a record number of 22,000 people turned up for services at the Rock Auditorium at Suntec

2009-03-04T01:39:00.002+08:00

because dead men speak no truth.therefore, the institution is always just and the opponents will forever be perverse deviants of this society.and the machine rages on.I, for one, do not believe in anything that the media has said with regards to the NTU stabbing incident and neither should any of you take it at face value.

2009-02-24T21:09:00.003+08:00

was squatting in the toilet the other day when this random thought struck me.can our personality really be classified by astrologists into the various zodiacs and their traits or are we simply becoming the standard stereotypical model of what the society expects of us?

2009-01-23T21:35:00.002+08:00

"What will he do when the immense power he has grasped soon proves to be totally useless in overcoming the intractable, opposing contradictions of the (capitalist) system?" - Fidel Castro, on Barack Obama's presidential rule.

2009-01-02T00:36:00.002+08:00

this may seem a lil bit late but what the heck, i'll just do it anyway.2008 has been a relatively lucky year for me i must say.a lot of things has happened in 2008 and while not all have been great, it's definitely been much better than other years that i could remember. my latest examination results have been nothing except lucky. it's all good which means i'm one step closer to leaving school

2008-11-25T01:12:00.000+08:00

oh snap!

2008-11-15T13:29:00.002+08:00

It sure has been a long time since I had a cake for my birthday. Let alone a home-made one. I really am touched by all of the efforts.Thanks :)

2008-11-09T22:42:00.001+08:00

simply because i played this song about 100 times today.

2008-11-09T21:21:00.002+08:00

because i always think that i could be better.maybe it's time i stop living up there and just let things flow.cos i probably am not good enough and never will be.

2008-10-21T23:30:00.000+08:00

because the lesser you speak, the more you hear.

2008-10-11T02:03:00.002+08:00

the difference between a good commercial and a great commercial: the music.

2008-10-09T18:56:00.000+08:00

"If it weren't for Christians, I'd be a Christian." - Mahatma Gandhi

2008-09-19T09:20:00.000+08:00

I might just get lucky for the second time in my life :)

2008-09-16T17:03:00.000+08:00

don't work.avoid telling the truth.be hated.love someone.

2008-09-07T14:38:00.001+08:00

urgh. fucking busy semester.like seriously.

2008-08-31T22:52:00.002+08:00

this is probably the busiest semester i've ever had so far. i probably can say the same for the next semester too.what a month it has been though :)

2008-08-17T19:34:00.002+08:00

somehow, it feels so nice to see your hairband beside my montor and your pyjamas hanging in the laundry area at my house.nothing would ever be the same again.

2008-08-09T23:42:00.000+08:00

i love the little disharmony you have brought into this organized little space of mine.

2008-08-06T17:50:00.002+08:00

seriously, i ain't entirely been busy going out or going to school lately that i haven't found time to blog.it's just that i'm staying at my uncle's place now and there ain't wireless over there which is a major inconvenience. i've gotta find another place to shift to i guess. anyone knows of any empty hall rooms or rooms for rent?

2008-08-05T00:58:00.000+08:00

one giant step for you and for me!

2008-08-01T20:00:00.003+08:00

omfg. i finally found a place that sells obey tees. shopping in malaysia rocks!

2008-07-31T23:39:00.000+08:00

2008-07-29T10:35:00.000+08:00

wow. he's good.

2008-07-28T23:27:00.002+08:00

as i was photoshopping some of the photos taken during the cambodia trip, a lot of memories and thoughts flooded back to me so i guess i'll pen them down over here.amongst all of the things i've seen, heard or tasted back in cambodia, the one thing i love most about the country is still the clear blue sky, the vast green fields.some of you may think that cambodia is a poor country which has

2008-07-27T18:06:00.004+08:00

:) finally back from cambodia backpacking.it's full of lotsa crazy shit but great nonetheless.there were a lot of first for me and the rest.first time i ate dog meat,first time i ate a cricket.am absolutely thrilled that most of my shots turned out so much better than expected. will find time to edit the photos and post them online, after i shake the lethargy off of course :)

2008-07-15T02:07:00.002+08:00

days which seemed like eternity.moments which you wished could last forever.nights which you wished wouldn't end.:)school's starting.cambodia, i'm coming.

2008-07-11T15:22:00.001+08:00

it really is crazy how things in life never turns out like you expect.even for things that were already so dead and done.someone up there must be playing a trick on me.

2008-07-09T02:11:00.000+08:00

yay global recession.

2008-07-04T01:30:00.003+08:00

not sure if it's a good or bad thing that i'm really not getting a hall room this time around. even though i've been saying i'm sick of hall life and all, it's become more of a necessity or convenience for me already. knowing that i could stay out late and have somewhere to stay over in singapore without having to leave early or imposing on others for the night.maybe after all, it's this

2008-06-30T04:39:00.000+08:00

torres!

2008-06-30T03:43:00.001+08:00

OMFG! DIABLO 3!!!

2008-06-26T01:32:00.002+08:00

seriously, i can't seem to have a dreamless night these days.every night i get the most bizarre of dreams with scenarios or even people i don't even remember. however, i do know that most of them revolves around my family. it's just crappy waking up feeling like you're not rested and even though you know you're dreaming, you can't help it.at the same time, i'm feeling more and more detached with

2008-06-22T01:35:00.002+08:00

watched march of the penguins finally and i thought it was pretty damn awesome of the crew which consists of only 2 men to be stationed on the antarctic for a year.the penguins are too damn cute :)

2008-06-16T21:45:00.002+08:00

"The Asian Institute of Ufology is seeking the services of a hi-caliber coordinator to handle UFO-related affairs and coordinate seminars, lectures and research opportunities with allied organizations in Japan.The ideal candidate should possess a high level of interest and passion to discern the mysteries of UFOs and ET life.You may contact direct via email at: asianufology@gmail.com"found it on

2008-06-12T23:08:00.002+08:00

why is it i feel that the more i read or the more i see/hear, the more i think this whole world totally makes no sense at all. in fact, nothing makes sense anymore. just feel like retreating to the jungles and live like a primate should.and kung fu panda is too funny. haha

2008-05-28T00:36:00.003+08:00

it's interesting to hear about my lecturer's viewpoint on pretty much everything, as an intellectual.how he quotes a professor in taiwan about why a university without humanities department cannot be considered as a university but simply only as a technical institute. how the 'arts' faculty in universities today are actually the largest school of thought back in ancient greek times.seriously i

2008-05-27T23:57:00.002+08:00

it's simply appalling at what our education system and the society is turning out to be.i overheard a simple radio advertisement broadcast about a course that would prepare children mentally for examinations in terms of strengthening their memory, tips and tricks, short cuts, etc. there is nothing wrong with the commercial itself of course, but the mere presence of this kind of service simply

2008-05-26T01:09:00.000+08:00

sorry was down with fever and stuff over the weekend.there's lots of thoughts on my mind. will try to pen them down when i get some quiet time alone. if i still remember them that is. my apologies.

2008-05-20T01:44:00.001+08:00

:):(:o:D:b:c|:/the complexities of life.

2008-05-18T22:48:00.000+08:00

when nothing makes sense anymore.

2008-05-12T00:18:00.001+08:00

there can be a hundred and one reasons to not do something, but there need be only one to do it.once that reason ceases to exist, everything fades to oblivion.

2008-05-11T02:01:00.000+08:00

because you forget what you want to remember and remember what you want to forget.life.

2008-05-09T02:26:00.002+08:00

it's really interesting how my mum would suddenly talk about things that she has never ever told me before. all of these took place in the car on the way to the bank (conversation was in hokkien).me: 哎呀，那些车没有用的啦。要的话买一辆 BM 啦。mum: 买。我等你买给我啊。me: 神经病，我哪里拿钱来买给你。你给我钱我买给你还差不多。mum: 不用怕，我懂你以后一定有钱买给我的。me: 哇！你酱看得起我啊。你又懂我以后一定有钱。mum: 以前有帮你算过命，讲你以后一定会是大老板的。me: 哇！怎么我不懂。你会算命啊。哈哈。mum: 没有啦。你爷爷跟我讲的。me: ！他几时跟你讲？

2008-05-08T09:38:00.001+08:00

sometimes i really think i'm heartless.the way i can just not care about someone anymore, the words i use, the way i remove them from my world.just don't force me.

2008-05-07T01:31:00.003+08:00

i wonder if it's a good thing that i've grown so accustomed to being alone these days. especially so when i've been living alone in this room by myself for the most part of this semester. it's gonna be hard when my roommate moves back and i really wonder if i could get back to sharing my life with someone else. yes. pun intended.i think i'm scaring my mum how i can live alone like this.maybe i'm

2008-05-07T01:13:00.002+08:00

while i was on the train back, this sudden revelation struck me.even though i had been telling people there ain't nothing i'm really afraid of, i've come to realise maybe there is just one thing.the fear of becoming like everyone else.

2008-05-06T00:00:00.002+08:00

haha it was a crazy night at alleybar man.why is it that i'm attracting older girls these days and i'm pretty flattered that people whom i meet for the first time could actually tell me i'm 'not normal', sexy, bad guy, nice guy all in the same night.oh and of course this is the first time i got picked up and hinted a one-night stand at a pub. that was interesting.sorry but i've got class tomorrow

2008-05-04T02:52:00.002+08:00

How to Play1. Put your music player on shuffle.2. Press forward for each question.3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense. No cheating.4. With the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.5. Tag 5 people.How are you feeling today?Avril Lavigne - Complicated.haha nice one.Will you get far in life?Bullet For My Valentine - Tears

2008-04-24T13:48:00.001+08:00

To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up;A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance;A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together;

2008-04-23T21:23:00.002+08:00

i remember reading somewhere that as leaders, he would naturally feel compelled to take responsibility for the well-being of his subordinates and would feel an irrational sense of responsibility in times of crises.yet, what Mr. Wong has demonstrated thus far shows nothing of that at all. instead, he doesn't even feel that he should take any responsibility for the misdoings of the people under him

2008-04-17T22:20:00.002+08:00

it's the same shit all over again.2 weeks before the exams i'll be motivated to study hard and then this optimism slowly dwindles and fades to oblivion. to the point whereby i spend 80% of my time procrastinating or rather just staying awake doing nothing at all. the remaining 20% are spent on eating, shitting.my left brain's just not in sync with my right brain. this sucks. i don't even know

2008-04-13T19:26:00.000+08:00

i can't do this anymore.

2008-04-12T14:37:00.001+08:00

i don't normally do this but apparently "Chinese President Hu says Tibet not a human rights issue". now he's gotta be one of the biggest douchebags in the world.

2008-04-09T00:01:00.000+08:00

cuteness! <3

2008-04-07T15:15:00.000+08:00

inspirational.

2008-04-07T02:02:00.000+08:00

omg. Hayley Williams is even better than Avril Lavigne. well, at least she's from a real band and she's hot too. wheeeee.

2008-04-05T14:34:00.001+08:00

this bitter sweetness that lingers on,the scent of yesteryears seeping through,this beautiful canvas of emptiness you left behind,the sweet dreams that won't come true.

2008-04-03T18:58:00.002+08:00

i wonder if it's because i'm single that's why i tend to be more discerning towards the number of couples in a crowd. however, the number of couples i've seen in shopping malls or even the school is far too many for my liking. urgh.

2008-04-03T01:57:00.000+08:00

spread the word!why beer is good for you.alright.

2008-03-31T19:19:00.001+08:00

heh. a kind someone actually said that i'm handsome and gentle.now that's something new.thanks.

2008-03-30T04:05:00.001+08:00

because eternity is meaningless when you're alone.and humans were never meant to lead a solitary life.i should keep myself busy.

2008-03-29T00:04:00.000+08:00

Earth Hour 2008. be part of it.

2008-03-28T19:46:00.003+08:00

well, dy was staying over at my place for the past 2 days. it sure is good to have someone else in the room for a change. might do me some good to have someone to talk to and stuff instead of just me all the time.why do i feel that random comments that come from him are pretty emo like almost all the time. urgh.oh yes. the sunset we saw near the quad yesterday was mesmerizing.sorry but i drank

2008-03-28T19:02:00.002+08:00

justin's finally gonna be back in singapore in about 12 hours' time. well, at last he's back after months of delay due to bad weather and his flights being postponed and stuff. sure hope i'll be able to meet up with him often before he goes somewhere far again ;)come to think about it, it's been bout 6 years since we first met huh. somehow, i still remember the first time we met. dy me and a

2008-03-26T13:57:00.001+08:00

since when did i become so gray a human being. i don't remember when it started and neither do i know when it's gonna end.all i need is a little bit of sunshine back in my life and a little less rain.

2008-03-18T12:56:00.001+08:00

one of those obscure musicians who produced the one great album of the 90s.

2008-03-17T10:36:00.002+08:00

i just screwed up my bank account big time. fuck. fuck. fuck.on a side note, this random thought suddenly struck me:when was the last time we really played like kids. just running around chasing each other till we run out of breath or simply just falling over on the ground.boy were those days fun and filled with laughter.now we're just chasing after, shadows and figures, in our mind.

2008-03-14T00:46:00.002+08:00

my insomnia these days is killing me. i'd go to bed at 3am only to find myself still awake at 5am. could barely wake up for my 930 classes these days.random thoughts keep flashing through my head no matter how tired i'm supposed to be. seems like the only way i can sleep is to drink a lil before turning in. this is bad.ah well. at least the weekend is here.i sleep so much better in that familiar

2008-03-11T16:15:00.000+08:00

wtf man. first it was irving. now ivan is doing it again.douchebags.

2008-03-10T23:45:00.004+08:00

"haha you know i'm never a firm believer in fate either. but it's just that all these futile attempts thus far is just totally tiring me out man. maybe i'll just let fate be a convenient excuse to not try so hard and fall so hard anymore."what i'd give for you to bother with what i'm thinking.

2008-03-10T02:18:00.003+08:00

geez. i hate this feeling.i wonder if i should even be doing it.escaping is never a solution yet it is all i can do at the moment. in the future.there's no turning back pretending nothing ever happened.i fucking didn't have to be reminded of her thank you.god i hate this.irving sucks.

2008-03-09T14:39:00.002+08:00

PAP ought to be thinking more about their future now that they understand that no political party is infallible under the democratic system.sigur firyr lýðræði.

2008-03-09T03:29:00.001+08:00

it's election results like this that makes you believe in justice, fairness and equality in democracy.

2008-03-09T03:09:00.001+08:00

i'm a proud voter for change :)

2008-03-07T02:22:00.000+08:00

i'm astounded by the music and sights in Heima.totally.

2008-03-04T19:48:00.004+08:00

i was taking down notes whilst listening to lecture when i accidentally wrote this:balanced equation of emotion motionif only it was as simple as numbers and figures.

2008-03-02T13:57:00.002+08:00

You are in a state of constant expectation and want interesting and exciting things to happen to you. But in fact, you are a 'Walter Mitty' at times - a dreamer - over-imaginative and often given to fantasy or day-dreaming. There is nothing wrong in 'dreaming' - how boring life would be if one just followed the doctrines of everyday life - but one must not continue leading a life of continuous

2008-03-01T03:05:00.000+08:00

LMAO. i was too fucking bored. it's been a while since i did this sorta stuff. entertaining :D Are You Emo?My Result: a Little Bit EmoShop at second hand stores from time to time? Feel like no one understands you? Own a pair of Chucks? That's just what we thought. It's not very strong, but we can kind of see it. We're betting you mope from time to time and you've been known to sigh over an ex,

2008-03-01T02:04:00.004+08:00

sometimes i would just sit and wonder.if all these talks that i've made will eventually be talks.all these beliefs that i hold true would eventually hit back right at my face.resenting all these things that i have done or not done.cursing this satirical life with every remaining breath i take.caught too deep within this cocoon of a lie that i've spun ever so long.all because i've come too far to

2008-02-28T01:24:00.002+08:00

haha apparently the JI leader who was detained by the Ministry of Home Affairs at Whitley Road Detention Centre has successfully escaped.he's probably the first who's done that. you gotta give it to him man. hahalooks like they were focusing too much on the Budget to be bothered about homeland security. what a joke.

2008-02-27T18:31:00.002+08:00

**** says:u told me de, u will not give upso keep going and dont give up--------. says:=)thanks.actually it's not about her telling me we're impossibleit's more of her telling me that whatever i've been doing is making her feel uncomfortableas in she feels awkward or sthand asks me to stop doing it.--------. says:there's no reason for me to continue doing what i'm doingbecause she told me that

2008-02-27T18:28:00.000+08:00

why does my inner left ear hurt so bad.urgh.

2008-02-26T19:38:00.000+08:00

this makes me wanna cry.

2008-02-26T19:33:00.001+08:00

i'm so addicted to Sigur Rós.

2008-02-26T18:52:00.000+08:00

Yvaine: You know when I said I knew little about love? That wasn't true. I know a lot about love. I've seen it, centuries and centuries of it, and it was the only thing that made watching your world bearable. All those wars. Pain, lies, hate... It made me want to turn away and never look down again. But when I see the way that mankind loves... You could search to the furthest reaches of the

2008-02-25T14:20:00.001+08:00

grrrr. what's with this sudden fit of melancholy i'm feeling.fucktard.

2008-02-25T12:50:00.002+08:00

i've been dreaming a whole lot lately. nothing too morbid or depressing. just random people in random situations. it's just not in my nature to dream so frequently maybe that's why i'm feeling so lethargic once again.was reading pj's blog and it reminded me of the movie "The Pursuit of Happyness" too. don't let anyone tell you something's impossible huh. oh well.

2008-02-23T02:56:00.001+08:00

amazing band. spread the word.

2008-02-23T01:34:00.001+08:00

goo goo dolls - iris.goo goo dolls - before it's too late.need i say more.

2008-02-20T20:22:00.002+08:00

isn't it amazing how we stop using some words because of the memories it will bring forth?my vocabulary is shrinking again.