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Oasis - Stop Crying Your Heart Out
Hold up
Hold on
Don't be scared
You'll never change what's been and gone
May your smile (may your smile)
Shine on (shine on)
Don't be scared (don't be scared)
Your destiny may keep you warm
Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Get up (get up)
Come on (come on)
Why're you scared? (I'm not scared)
You'll never change
What's been and gone
Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
We're all of us stars
We're fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see us some day
Just take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out
-forgot my name at 11:23 PM
bLaHz
guess i'll just take a bit of time out of my ever busy schedule to do some blogging right now. =\ school's started once again. it's not as bad as i thought it would be. some of my common tests results were really scary...not as in i did very badly but it's really way outta my expectation. say GP...i thought i would fail cause i was like crapping my way through but managed to get a grade of 36/50. it's the first time i ever made it past the 30 mark i think. not too bad. didn't really study for most of the subjects. can't expect too much outta it anyway. but school's really great fun coz it's good to get all crappy with your classmates once again. everyday's just full of shit. my blog title is actually adapted from the song below:
Our Lady Peace - Made of Steel
I can be anything that you want me to be
A punching bag, a piece of string, oh
That reminds you not to think
I found the note down in your car
And its not your fault it gets this hard
Gets this hard
Hold your head high
Don�t look down
I�m by your side
Won�t back down
You wanted a hero tonight
Well I�m not made of steel
I�m not made of steel
But your secrets safe with me
I can be anything that you want me to be
A holy cross, some sympathy, oh
That reminds you not to bleed
I found the note down in your car
And you climbed up here to fall apart
Fall apart
Hold your head high
Don�t look down
I�m by your side
Won�t back down
You wanted a hero tonight
Well I�m not made of steel
I�m not made of steel
But your secrets safe with me
No...
Your secrets safe with me
They knock you down
I�ll pick you up...
They laugh at you
I�ll shut them up
But I�m not made of steel
But I�m not made of steel
But I�m not made of steel
But your secrets safe with me
Yeah
Your secrets safe with me
But yeah
Hold your head high
Don�t look down
I�m by your side
Won�t back down
You wanted a hero tonight
-forgot my name at 11:12 PM
-forgot my name at 8:26 PM
this is probably what i'm feeling these few days. not physically empty but mentally. guess it's just one of the fucked up times of the year whereby one's just feeling totally fucked up and the mind's just on the brink of sanity.
maybe i should give some sorta background information on why i am feeling like this now. it's sorta started with how my parents have grounded me on friday. yup. just kinda like for no reason they refuse to let me out of the house. it's just after the common tests and they are doing this to me. what the fuck. just screw it. it's not as if i've been going out a lot. i just don't know what's their problem. maybe they just don't like me. :\ well, it's like after they've grounded me. i was just totally in a shitty mood, with a fucked up face i could say. guess they couldn't stand my attitude therefore my mum started rambling all kinds of shit. the things she said are totally crap. just being unreasonable. i don't know. she expects a lotta stuff outta me. i'm just not the type of son she wants i suppose. she simply loves to compare me with other people's son. about how fucking obedient their sons are, how freaking studious they are. just fuck it. if you want someone like that, then fucking adopt them. i can't do it. another good point that she brought up that i find it totally dumb would be the fact that i'm always playing computer and not studying. just because she doesn't see me studying, she chooses to believe that i have not studied at all. wow. how cool is that?
i guess i sorta realized another sad part about my family. i didn't really notice it previously until she was nagging at me about something. i've been living in a family whereby i'm just provided with material wealth all these while. it's kinda ironic cause previously when i watch tv and such, i feel kinda sorry for the child whose parents are busy working outside and don't really give a shit about them. i'm just dumb. this really sounds crappy but it's sorta true. maybe that's why i'm feeling so sad these few days. my mum was nagging at me over stuff like "i've bought you whatever you wanted. what more do you want out of your life?" some shit like that. i'm not good at translations from hokkien to english. sorry. she just likes to compare my life to those who are much poorer whereby they have to work hard for their every meal and i should be glad that i am living such a comfortable life right now. i am glad that my life is comfortable. i do not expect that much outta my life anyway. it's simply themselves who are pushing themself to work so hard. i am content with my life now. if need be, i could simply earn my own living. i don't believe i'll starve to death on the streets if i ever leave this house. sometimes i would simply wonder whether my life would be much simpler if my family is poorer and that my parents need not work so hard for everything right now. maybe then we would have more time to be together.
everything she says that day just sounds so ironical to me. she thinks that i want a lotta things outta my life. but i'm fine with whatever it is right now. i just want to live my own life. i do need their money i admit. but that's not all that i want. i need them to understand me. all the things she said about me just kinda informed me about how little they know about my feelings and my thoughts. i just feel so not-loved. the feeling is just totally shitty. it's maybe the second time i'm feeling so sad in my life. damn. this is crazy. just don't get it why this year simply sucks for me. all these shit has never happened to me before. maybe it's due to the fact that i've disappointed them badly previously. but it's totally shit. just feeling so cold. so lonely. it's just as if i could disappear from the face of this earth one day without anyone noticing or even bothering to care in the first place i think. just really feel like crying at night when it just gets sorta cold. my life sucks. it's simply like no one even gives a shit about me or even bothering to care. i just need feel that i'm at least cared by someone. i'm really just rotting myself at home. totally living in a world of my own. been trying to indulge myself in games but i've just got no mood for it. feel so left out of everything. life goes on anyway. whether i'm in it or not.
people have been telling me not to think so much these few days. maybe that's why i'm still so sad now. or maybe i'm really hurt this time round. even when i'm not thinking of anything, tears would just well up in my eyes. and the feeling just totally sucks. guess i need time to get over this shit. anyway, thanks for asking justin. at least i know that someone's noticed my presence. thanks.
Our Lady Peace - In Repair
Well it's good to know that you'll be okay
I've been waiting for this
And I'll be there to sit while you pray
No one's blaming me
I'm not supposed to wait
When they open up your heart
Oh I� I have been good, I understood
Like a machine, I'll fix you from the start
I'm in repair, the life that we share
I know that I'll be lost in
But we're always in repair
Lock the door, lock the door
Lock the door, lock the door
Lock the door, lock the door
And it's good to know that you'll drive away
From this car crash nightmare
And I'll be there to help you again
And there's no danger
We're just killing time again
When they order up new parts
Oh I� I have been good, I understood
Like a machine, I'll fix you from the start
I'm in repair, the life that we share
I know that I'll be lost in
But we're always in repair
Take this time to figure it out
Know the wire, the fuse, the things that you doubt
The wheels, the air, the metal, the mouth
Something, something, something
Oh I� I have been good, I understood
Like a machine, I'll fix you from the start
I'm in repair, the life that we share
I know that I'll be lost in
Oh I� I have been good, I understood
Like a machine, I'll fix you from the start
I'm in repair, the life that we share
I know that I'll be lost in
But we're always in repair
Lock the door, lock the door
Lock the door, lock the door
Lock the door, lock the door
-forgot my name at 1:14 AM
-forgot my name at 11:37 PM
You represent... naivete.
So innocent and trusting... you can be very shy at
times, but it's only because you're not sure
how to act. You give off that "I need to
be protected vibe." Remember that not all
people are good. Being too trusting will get
you easily hurt.
What feeling do you represent?
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You are Peace.
You are at peace with your self and the world
around you. You have balance in your life and
exude tranquility from every pore of your body.
People are constantly asking you "what is
your secret?"
What Emotion Are You?
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-forgot my name at 2:11 AM
You actually enjoy going to school, doing your
work and get straight As!! You even own THE
clique in school, you popular bastard!
Congratulations, everybody else (secretly)
hates you!
Which Stereotypical Singaporean Student Are You?
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-forgot my name at 1:28 AM
The Used - Buried Myself Alive
you almost always pick the best times
to drop the worst lines
you almost made me cry again this time
another false alarm
red flashing lights
well this time I'm not going to watch myself die
I think I made it a game to play your game
and let myself cry
I buried myself alive on the inside
so I could shut you out
and let you go away for a long time
I guess it's ok I puked the day away
I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way
and if you want me back
you're gonna have to ask
nicer than that
I think the chain broke away
and I felt it the day that I had my own time
I took advantage of myself and felt fine
but it was worth the night
I caught an early flight and I made it home
with my foot on your neck
I finally have you
right where I want you
-forgot my name at 3:11 AM
Hold up
Hold on
Don't be scared
You'll never change what's been and gone
May your smile (may your smile)
Shine on (shine on)
Don't be scared (don't be scared)
Your destiny may keep you warm
Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Get up (get up)
Come on (come on)
Why're you scared? (I'm not scared)
You'll never change
What's been and gone
Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
We're all of us stars
We're fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see us some day
Just take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out
-forgot my name at 11:23 PM
bLaHz
guess i'll just take a bit of time out of my ever busy schedule to do some blogging right now. =\ school's started once again. it's not as bad as i thought it would be. some of my common tests results were really scary...not as in i did very badly but it's really way outta my expectation. say GP...i thought i would fail cause i was like crapping my way through but managed to get a grade of 36/50. it's the first time i ever made it past the 30 mark i think. not too bad. didn't really study for most of the subjects. can't expect too much outta it anyway. but school's really great fun coz it's good to get all crappy with your classmates once again. everyday's just full of shit. my blog title is actually adapted from the song below:
Our Lady Peace - Made of Steel
I can be anything that you want me to be
A punching bag, a piece of string, oh
That reminds you not to think
I found the note down in your car
And its not your fault it gets this hard
Gets this hard
Hold your head high
Don�t look down
I�m by your side
Won�t back down
You wanted a hero tonight
Well I�m not made of steel
I�m not made of steel
But your secrets safe with me
I can be anything that you want me to be
A holy cross, some sympathy, oh
That reminds you not to bleed
I found the note down in your car
And you climbed up here to fall apart
Fall apart
Hold your head high
Don�t look down
I�m by your side
Won�t back down
You wanted a hero tonight
Well I�m not made of steel
I�m not made of steel
But your secrets safe with me
No...
Your secrets safe with me
They knock you down
I�ll pick you up...
They laugh at you
I�ll shut them up
But I�m not made of steel
But I�m not made of steel
But I�m not made of steel
But your secrets safe with me
Yeah
Your secrets safe with me
But yeah
Hold your head high
Don�t look down
I�m by your side
Won�t back down
You wanted a hero tonight
-forgot my name at 11:12 PM
You are the most universal mythical beast ever. Sightings of the unicorn have been reported from all over the world, even in modern times. Unicorns are pure and incorruptible. In China, unicorns symbolized gentleness, good will, and wisdom. Christianity links the unicorn with Christ. It is said that unicorns would only allow virgin girls to see them, let alone touch them. They were easily lured into fatal ambushes by a virgin with some poachers waiting for the unicorn in nearby bushes. A unicorn's horn was a highly prized possession, which was reputed to have great healing capabilities. With the touch of its horn, a unicorn could bring back a person who had been dead for several hours. But when separated from the unicorn's body, the magic was significantly reduced. The unicorn had the body of a horse, a unique spiraling horn, and a lion's tail. They were pure white in color.
What mythical beast best represents you? Take the quiz!
-forgot my name at 8:26 PM
Empty
this is probably what i'm feeling these few days. not physically empty but mentally. guess it's just one of the fucked up times of the year whereby one's just feeling totally fucked up and the mind's just on the brink of sanity.
maybe i should give some sorta background information on why i am feeling like this now. it's sorta started with how my parents have grounded me on friday. yup. just kinda like for no reason they refuse to let me out of the house. it's just after the common tests and they are doing this to me. what the fuck. just screw it. it's not as if i've been going out a lot. i just don't know what's their problem. maybe they just don't like me. :\ well, it's like after they've grounded me. i was just totally in a shitty mood, with a fucked up face i could say. guess they couldn't stand my attitude therefore my mum started rambling all kinds of shit. the things she said are totally crap. just being unreasonable. i don't know. she expects a lotta stuff outta me. i'm just not the type of son she wants i suppose. she simply loves to compare me with other people's son. about how fucking obedient their sons are, how freaking studious they are. just fuck it. if you want someone like that, then fucking adopt them. i can't do it. another good point that she brought up that i find it totally dumb would be the fact that i'm always playing computer and not studying. just because she doesn't see me studying, she chooses to believe that i have not studied at all. wow. how cool is that?
i guess i sorta realized another sad part about my family. i didn't really notice it previously until she was nagging at me about something. i've been living in a family whereby i'm just provided with material wealth all these while. it's kinda ironic cause previously when i watch tv and such, i feel kinda sorry for the child whose parents are busy working outside and don't really give a shit about them. i'm just dumb. this really sounds crappy but it's sorta true. maybe that's why i'm feeling so sad these few days. my mum was nagging at me over stuff like "i've bought you whatever you wanted. what more do you want out of your life?" some shit like that. i'm not good at translations from hokkien to english. sorry. she just likes to compare my life to those who are much poorer whereby they have to work hard for their every meal and i should be glad that i am living such a comfortable life right now. i am glad that my life is comfortable. i do not expect that much outta my life anyway. it's simply themselves who are pushing themself to work so hard. i am content with my life now. if need be, i could simply earn my own living. i don't believe i'll starve to death on the streets if i ever leave this house. sometimes i would simply wonder whether my life would be much simpler if my family is poorer and that my parents need not work so hard for everything right now. maybe then we would have more time to be together.
everything she says that day just sounds so ironical to me. she thinks that i want a lotta things outta my life. but i'm fine with whatever it is right now. i just want to live my own life. i do need their money i admit. but that's not all that i want. i need them to understand me. all the things she said about me just kinda informed me about how little they know about my feelings and my thoughts. i just feel so not-loved. the feeling is just totally shitty. it's maybe the second time i'm feeling so sad in my life. damn. this is crazy. just don't get it why this year simply sucks for me. all these shit has never happened to me before. maybe it's due to the fact that i've disappointed them badly previously. but it's totally shit. just feeling so cold. so lonely. it's just as if i could disappear from the face of this earth one day without anyone noticing or even bothering to care in the first place i think. just really feel like crying at night when it just gets sorta cold. my life sucks. it's simply like no one even gives a shit about me or even bothering to care. i just need feel that i'm at least cared by someone. i'm really just rotting myself at home. totally living in a world of my own. been trying to indulge myself in games but i've just got no mood for it. feel so left out of everything. life goes on anyway. whether i'm in it or not.
people have been telling me not to think so much these few days. maybe that's why i'm still so sad now. or maybe i'm really hurt this time round. even when i'm not thinking of anything, tears would just well up in my eyes. and the feeling just totally sucks. guess i need time to get over this shit. anyway, thanks for asking justin. at least i know that someone's noticed my presence. thanks.
Our Lady Peace - In Repair
Well it's good to know that you'll be okay
I've been waiting for this
And I'll be there to sit while you pray
No one's blaming me
I'm not supposed to wait
When they open up your heart
Oh I� I have been good, I understood
Like a machine, I'll fix you from the start
I'm in repair, the life that we share
I know that I'll be lost in
But we're always in repair
Lock the door, lock the door
Lock the door, lock the door
Lock the door, lock the door
And it's good to know that you'll drive away
From this car crash nightmare
And I'll be there to help you again
And there's no danger
We're just killing time again
When they order up new parts
Oh I� I have been good, I understood
Like a machine, I'll fix you from the start
I'm in repair, the life that we share
I know that I'll be lost in
But we're always in repair
Take this time to figure it out
Know the wire, the fuse, the things that you doubt
The wheels, the air, the metal, the mouth
Something, something, something
Oh I� I have been good, I understood
Like a machine, I'll fix you from the start
I'm in repair, the life that we share
I know that I'll be lost in
Oh I� I have been good, I understood
Like a machine, I'll fix you from the start
I'm in repair, the life that we share
I know that I'll be lost in
But we're always in repair
Lock the door, lock the door
Lock the door, lock the door
Lock the door, lock the door
-forgot my name at 1:14 AM
-forgot my name at 11:37 PM
You represent... naivete.
So innocent and trusting... you can be very shy at
times, but it's only because you're not sure
how to act. You give off that "I need to
be protected vibe." Remember that not all
people are good. Being too trusting will get
you easily hurt.
What feeling do you represent?
brought to you by Quizilla
You are Peace.
You are at peace with your self and the world
around you. You have balance in your life and
exude tranquility from every pore of your body.
People are constantly asking you "what is
your secret?"
What Emotion Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla
-forgot my name at 2:11 AM
You're the model Singaporean student!
You actually enjoy going to school, doing your
work and get straight As!! You even own THE
clique in school, you popular bastard!
Congratulations, everybody else (secretly)
hates you!
Which Stereotypical Singaporean Student Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla
-forgot my name at 1:28 AM
The Used - Buried Myself Alive
you almost always pick the best times
to drop the worst lines
you almost made me cry again this time
another false alarm
red flashing lights
well this time I'm not going to watch myself die
I think I made it a game to play your game
and let myself cry
I buried myself alive on the inside
so I could shut you out
and let you go away for a long time
I guess it's ok I puked the day away
I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way
and if you want me back
you're gonna have to ask
nicer than that
I think the chain broke away
and I felt it the day that I had my own time
I took advantage of myself and felt fine
but it was worth the night
I caught an early flight and I made it home
with my foot on your neck
I finally have you
right where I want you
-forgot my name at 3:11 AM
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