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sometimes the very words we say actually comes true. just a simple comment could actually turn things around. paths do cross and it's a small world after all. chance or fate? take it or leave it. i say take it.
-forgot my name at 4:15 AM
it's been a long time since i've been able to feel that way. somehow after running around for so long i'm back to the same place. things just doesn't seem to turn out the way i thought it should. maybe it's me. maybe it's you. yet somehow i still could only let my emotions show in front of you.
-forgot my name at 12:37 PM
i really have lost the drive to play hockey or floorball or whichever sport you can name me.
everytime i hear hockey or see stuff related to it, memories of the day when we lost two matches in a row comes to my mind. somehow i believed i could've done so much more. yet it was not to be.
i know not why i'm so bothered by it. probably because it's the first time i've lost two straight games be it the A division or whatsoever. my hockey stick's still hanging there in the cold of the night. maybe it'll be hanging there forever.
-forgot my name at 3:31 AM
-forgot my name at 3:26 AM
i guess i'm a combination of both.
-forgot my name at 1:57 AM
oh god. don't you just hate birthdays. it's probably a shadow i can never get rid of. maybe...maybe...ah fuck.
-forgot my name at 1:21 AM
-forgot my name at 1:15 AM
maybe.
i just need to find something to believe in. something that is worth believing in. a lotta things doesn't seem to be working out somehow. sometimes i feel that all these problems of mine are minute compared to the concerns of others. well, at least i ain't gotta be worrying about where my pocket money's gonna be coming from tomorrow. it makes me feel a whole lot better thinking that way but at the same time it makes me sad that people around me are actually going through a lotta this shit.
sometimes i really wish i could help. and who would be there to help me. would it be you, you or you? i wonder. maybe i should start by helping myself. oh crap.
-forgot my name at 1:32 AM
the dumbest invention for this fucking year.
it's gotta be the iGallop shit by Osim. it freaking looks damn dumb just sitting on a thing which rocks you back and forth. makes no sense as to how it's gonna shape your body. and i don't see the fun in doing so for the millions of times people might be using it. not to say it looks kinda obscene for a girl to ride on something which moves back and forth. oh god. someone please remove that commercial from tv.
-forgot my name at 10:59 AM
sometimes
i lie to myself so often that i can no longer differentiate the fact from fiction.
-forgot my name at 4:26 PM
note to self.
you're such a dumb muthafucking bitch dude. you gotta wake up your fucking ideas man. ain't nobody gonna take pity on you and give you all the attention you hope for. you know it. you've been there before. and you ain't wanna go there anymore. is it even worth it doing what you do? buying dinner in the rain. that's dumb you know. who do you think you are? superman? you know the answer. it's dumb. get a life. let go of yourself. it's no point holding on man. ain't nobody gonna be able to give you what you want. you have yourself. face it dude. you know it hurts. it hurts so bad that you can't breathe. your fever's your own business dude. people's got their own life to deal with. so let's just move on and stop whining. at least your mum gave you a call and offered to get you a ride home just now in the rain. that's all it matters. you still have your family man. that's all that matters. nothing else does.
the end of heartache.
sometimes it really hurts. it does. i don't know why. i'm absolutely fine people. the fever's not bringing me down. of course i reminisce about the scene whereby someone would put a blanket over me as i lay there freezing. that ain't gonna happen anymore i know. but it's just nice to dream but it hurts to realise. pj might probably drop me a msg askin me to cheer up or something but i'm absolutely fine. don't worry bout it. it's just one of those days. you know. menstrual cycle. i'm back at home sheltered from the storm. what could be wrong. :)
sometimes i really wish i could be innocent once more. so that i could see the beauty of this very environment i'm living in instead of all the lies and deceit.
somebody please show me that life is still as beautiful as it is supposed to be. so i could be happy. just once more.
-forgot my name at 3:50 PM
well. the year 2005 has ended. not with a good note nor a bad note but rather it just ended peacefully. it's a good thing of course. meaning there ain't any particular traumatizing event that whole fucking year but just me myself and i doing what i do best.
i've at least managed to meet up with most if not all the people i've set out to meet up during this december holidays. although i might not have spent enough time on certain groups of people but i do make an effort to allocate my time between all of you guys. ain't not biased towards any of you all. come to think of it, 2005 ended pretty well after all. haha i'm such a dick. the class gathering bbq at zexi's place wasn't too bad. and as usual those fuckers leave it to me to arrange this sorta stuff and about two-thirds of the class came which could actually be considered pretty good. after all, most of those who didn't make it were the ones who were usually busy doing their own stuff most of the time.
new year was spent on the couch watching some jackie chan show on tv. i know that's lame but it's the only thing i wouldn't mind doing on such a night. after all, i've been away from home far too much for the 2nd half of 2005. i just wanna spend that special last day of the year with my family, with my mum watching some dumbass jackie chan show on tv. nice. not the show but rather the feeling is just nice.
and school's starting pretty soon. i ain't gonna ask for much outta it but i just hope that i'll be able to get the timetable i planned for. not that it's a fucking slack timetable but it really keeps me busy so that's good. as for the hall activities that might still be going on, i'm gonna pretty much fuck it already. it's gonna be home sweet home for me and mugging for better grades all the way. let's try to up one grade for all the modules. my new year resolution. cool.
happy new year to one and all. chinese new year is coming. way cool dude. i'll be getting to see my gramma again! woohoo!
-forgot my name at 5:45 PM
-forgot my name at 4:15 AM
it's been a long time since i've been able to feel that way. somehow after running around for so long i'm back to the same place. things just doesn't seem to turn out the way i thought it should. maybe it's me. maybe it's you. yet somehow i still could only let my emotions show in front of you.
-forgot my name at 12:37 PM
i really have lost the drive to play hockey or floorball or whichever sport you can name me.
everytime i hear hockey or see stuff related to it, memories of the day when we lost two matches in a row comes to my mind. somehow i believed i could've done so much more. yet it was not to be.
i know not why i'm so bothered by it. probably because it's the first time i've lost two straight games be it the A division or whatsoever. my hockey stick's still hanging there in the cold of the night. maybe it'll be hanging there forever.
-forgot my name at 3:31 AM
they say that with time, memory fades. yet some things become ever so clear as the world revolves.
-forgot my name at 3:26 AM
there are only two reasons as to why a person is single. either he/she is single by choice or single by no choice. which one are you?
i guess i'm a combination of both.
-forgot my name at 1:57 AM
oh god. don't you just hate birthdays. it's probably a shadow i can never get rid of. maybe...maybe...ah fuck.
-forgot my name at 1:21 AM
ah crap. need i say more. i really wanna cry myself to sleep. but the tears won't come.
-forgot my name at 1:15 AM
maybe.
i just need to find something to believe in. something that is worth believing in. a lotta things doesn't seem to be working out somehow. sometimes i feel that all these problems of mine are minute compared to the concerns of others. well, at least i ain't gotta be worrying about where my pocket money's gonna be coming from tomorrow. it makes me feel a whole lot better thinking that way but at the same time it makes me sad that people around me are actually going through a lotta this shit.
sometimes i really wish i could help. and who would be there to help me. would it be you, you or you? i wonder. maybe i should start by helping myself. oh crap.
-forgot my name at 1:32 AM
the dumbest invention for this fucking year.
it's gotta be the iGallop shit by Osim. it freaking looks damn dumb just sitting on a thing which rocks you back and forth. makes no sense as to how it's gonna shape your body. and i don't see the fun in doing so for the millions of times people might be using it. not to say it looks kinda obscene for a girl to ride on something which moves back and forth. oh god. someone please remove that commercial from tv.
-forgot my name at 10:59 AM
sometimes
i lie to myself so often that i can no longer differentiate the fact from fiction.
-forgot my name at 4:26 PM
note to self.
you're such a dumb muthafucking bitch dude. you gotta wake up your fucking ideas man. ain't nobody gonna take pity on you and give you all the attention you hope for. you know it. you've been there before. and you ain't wanna go there anymore. is it even worth it doing what you do? buying dinner in the rain. that's dumb you know. who do you think you are? superman? you know the answer. it's dumb. get a life. let go of yourself. it's no point holding on man. ain't nobody gonna be able to give you what you want. you have yourself. face it dude. you know it hurts. it hurts so bad that you can't breathe. your fever's your own business dude. people's got their own life to deal with. so let's just move on and stop whining. at least your mum gave you a call and offered to get you a ride home just now in the rain. that's all it matters. you still have your family man. that's all that matters. nothing else does.
the end of heartache.
sometimes it really hurts. it does. i don't know why. i'm absolutely fine people. the fever's not bringing me down. of course i reminisce about the scene whereby someone would put a blanket over me as i lay there freezing. that ain't gonna happen anymore i know. but it's just nice to dream but it hurts to realise. pj might probably drop me a msg askin me to cheer up or something but i'm absolutely fine. don't worry bout it. it's just one of those days. you know. menstrual cycle. i'm back at home sheltered from the storm. what could be wrong. :)
sometimes i really wish i could be innocent once more. so that i could see the beauty of this very environment i'm living in instead of all the lies and deceit.
somebody please show me that life is still as beautiful as it is supposed to be. so i could be happy. just once more.
-forgot my name at 3:50 PM
well. the year 2005 has ended. not with a good note nor a bad note but rather it just ended peacefully. it's a good thing of course. meaning there ain't any particular traumatizing event that whole fucking year but just me myself and i doing what i do best.
i've at least managed to meet up with most if not all the people i've set out to meet up during this december holidays. although i might not have spent enough time on certain groups of people but i do make an effort to allocate my time between all of you guys. ain't not biased towards any of you all. come to think of it, 2005 ended pretty well after all. haha i'm such a dick. the class gathering bbq at zexi's place wasn't too bad. and as usual those fuckers leave it to me to arrange this sorta stuff and about two-thirds of the class came which could actually be considered pretty good. after all, most of those who didn't make it were the ones who were usually busy doing their own stuff most of the time.
new year was spent on the couch watching some jackie chan show on tv. i know that's lame but it's the only thing i wouldn't mind doing on such a night. after all, i've been away from home far too much for the 2nd half of 2005. i just wanna spend that special last day of the year with my family, with my mum watching some dumbass jackie chan show on tv. nice. not the show but rather the feeling is just nice.
and school's starting pretty soon. i ain't gonna ask for much outta it but i just hope that i'll be able to get the timetable i planned for. not that it's a fucking slack timetable but it really keeps me busy so that's good. as for the hall activities that might still be going on, i'm gonna pretty much fuck it already. it's gonna be home sweet home for me and mugging for better grades all the way. let's try to up one grade for all the modules. my new year resolution. cool.
happy new year to one and all. chinese new year is coming. way cool dude. i'll be getting to see my gramma again! woohoo!
-forgot my name at 5:45 PM
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