Monday, March 31, 2008

heh. a kind someone actually said that i'm handsome and gentle.

now that's something new.

thanks.
-forgot my name at 7:19 PM

Sunday, March 30, 2008

because eternity is meaningless when you're alone.

and humans were never meant to lead a solitary life.

i should keep myself busy.
-forgot my name at 4:05 AM

Saturday, March 29, 2008

Earth Hour 2008. be part of it.
-forgot my name at 12:04 AM

Friday, March 28, 2008

well, dy was staying over at my place for the past 2 days. it sure is good to have someone else in the room for a change. might do me some good to have someone to talk to and stuff instead of just me all the time.

why do i feel that random comments that come from him are pretty emo like almost all the time. urgh.
oh yes. the sunset we saw near the quad yesterday was mesmerizing.

sorry but i drank half a bottle of cheap wine while listening to the cd. haha
-forgot my name at 7:46 PM

justin's finally gonna be back in singapore in about 12 hours' time. well, at last he's back after months of delay due to bad weather and his flights being postponed and stuff. sure hope i'll be able to meet up with him often before he goes somewhere far again ;)

come to think about it, it's been bout 6 years since we first met huh. somehow, i still remember the first time we met. dy me and a couple of guys were all waiting at tampines mrt station to go for our hockey training at temasek poly. if i remember correctly, we were awfully late for training already and i think it was tim who told us to wait for one more guy which was you. man. those were the days.

i don't know how but we sort of started hanging out a lot even after training. maybe it's because we tend to hang out at the same places in school, the reading room, student lounge and stuff. well, i might not have slacked so much to the point of retaining if i hadn't met that ass. he's just too wicked company to hang around with. come to think of it, justin sure has gone through a lot of ups and downs with me. JC was a period that was totally full of shit and especially so when it comes to relationship issues. those days of me punching wall and having you bring me to get my hand treated by the crap sinseh. haha i'm sure glad you were there with me all these while. i don't know what i would have done without you. thanks a lot bro :)

i remember that we kinda started our blogs together if i'm not wrong. of course when your blog was still the screwofflilbugger that's my mine was getalowdownlife and dy had one which was getitoffmychest. i guess all these are testaments to our youths that we've been young and reckless once. of course, we're not young anymore but still as reckless. heh.

how time flies man. i'll be graduating in a year's time hopefully and soon dy and jason would be out too. well, at least you've sort of started some kinda career that most people would admire and i totally don't know where i would end up by then. i hope i wouldn't have to be living off my friends in the future. -hints-

ah well. i have no idea why i'm posting all of these either. just suddenly felt like saying all these. i guess it's the cd dy burnt for me that's making me emo. welcome back and i'll see ya next week :)
-forgot my name at 7:02 PM

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

since when did i become so gray a human being. i don't remember when it started and neither do i know when it's gonna end.
all i need is a little bit of sunshine back in my life and a little less rain.
-forgot my name at 1:57 PM

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

one of those obscure musicians who produced the one great album of the 90s.


-forgot my name at 12:56 PM

Monday, March 17, 2008

i just screwed up my bank account big time. fuck. fuck. fuck.

on a side note, this random thought suddenly struck me:
when was the last time we really played like kids. just running around chasing each other till we run out of breath or simply just falling over on the ground.
boy were those days fun and filled with laughter.
now we're just chasing after, shadows and figures, in our mind.
-forgot my name at 10:36 AM

Friday, March 14, 2008

my insomnia these days is killing me. i'd go to bed at 3am only to find myself still awake at 5am. could barely wake up for my 930 classes these days.
random thoughts keep flashing through my head no matter how tired i'm supposed to be. seems like the only way i can sleep is to drink a lil before turning in. this is bad.

ah well. at least the weekend is here.
i sleep so much better in that familiar four walls and a bed.
the only solace and comfort i could seek.
-forgot my name at 12:46 AM

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

wtf man. first it was irving. now ivan is doing it again.

douchebags.
-forgot my name at 4:15 PM

Monday, March 10, 2008

"haha you know i'm never a firm believer in fate either. but it's just that all these futile attempts thus far is just totally tiring me out man. maybe i'll just let fate be a convenient excuse to not try so hard and fall so hard anymore."

what i'd give for you to bother with what i'm thinking.
-forgot my name at 11:45 PM

geez. i hate this feeling.

i wonder if i should even be doing it.

escaping is never a solution yet it is all i can do at the moment. in the future.

there's no turning back pretending nothing ever happened.

i fucking didn't have to be reminded of her thank you.

god i hate this.

irving sucks.
-forgot my name at 2:18 AM

Sunday, March 09, 2008

PAP ought to be thinking more about their future now that they understand that no political party is infallible under the democratic system.

sigur firyr lýðræði.
-forgot my name at 2:39 PM

it's election results like this that makes you believe in justice, fairness and equality in democracy.
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i'm a proud voter for change :)
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Friday, March 07, 2008

i'm astounded by the music and sights in Heima.

totally.
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Tuesday, March 04, 2008

i was taking down notes whilst listening to lecture when i accidentally wrote this:

balanced equation of emotion motion

if only it was as simple as numbers and figures.
-forgot my name at 7:48 PM

Sunday, March 02, 2008

You are in a state of constant expectation and want interesting and exciting things to happen to you. But in fact, you are a 'Walter Mitty' at times - a dreamer - over-imaginative and often given to fantasy or day-dreaming. There is nothing wrong in 'dreaming' - how boring life would be if one just followed the doctrines of everyday life - but one must not continue leading a life of continuous fantasy. You need to face reality in spite of all its possible shortcomings.

You are working extremely hard - perhaps even above and beyond the call of duty. You are preparing for the future and therefore trying to build a firm trouble-free foundation upon which you may base all of your dreams and aspirations.

Your involvements seldom measure up to your high emotional expectations and your 'needs' to be 'loved' and 'cared for' have in the past often led to extreme disappointment. But a change is in the wind - make a firm decision to start anew. Just 'think' it..and it will happen.

The unwanted situation in which you presently find yourself is causing you considerable stress and frustration and your feeling is that whatever you try to do to remedy this is to no avail. You feel trapped. You want to get away from it all as you feel that you are banging your head against a brick wall getting nowhere. You have turned your aggression inwards and you are furious with yourself for not being able to achieve your goals. You need to go away, somewhere where there are less restrictions and where you can be free to make your own decisions.

You are worn out - suffering from what has been described as 'burnout' and nothing seems to stimulate you to break away from this state of lethargy. This situation is causing an acute distress situation and not being able immediately to resolve the problems is exposing you to excess stress and tension. You are endeavouring to break away from this situation by withdrawing into a state of 'Never Never Land' - an illusory substitute world in which things could be as you would like them to be. Now is the time to take time-out - to relax. A short break is all that you need and you will find that matters will resolve themselves.

this is a test done from the Colorgenics website. how long has it been. 3 years? 4 years? and i'm still feeling this lethargy and this 'trapped' feeling. it's true, most of it, almost all of it. interesting how it reveals so much about yourself no matter how many times you do it. i was just contemplating on putting 'finding neverland' into my msn nick a couple of days ago.
ah. there's no escape from all of these. it's just a vicious cycle.
-forgot my name at 1:57 PM

Saturday, March 01, 2008

LMAO. i was too fucking bored. it's been a while since i did this sorta stuff. entertaining :D



-forgot my name at 3:05 AM

sometimes i would just sit and wonder.

if all these talks that i've made will eventually be talks.

all these beliefs that i hold true would eventually hit back right at my face.

resenting all these things that i have done or not done.

cursing this satirical life with every remaining breath i take.

caught too deep within this cocoon of a lie that i've spun ever so long.

all because i've come too far to turn back now.
-forgot my name at 2:04 AM