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Thursday, December 31, 2009

It has been my experience that folks who have no vices have very few virtues. - Abraham Lincoln

-forgot my name at 11:23 AM

Monday, December 28, 2009

this is the time when your insecurity about everything would just eat you from the guts out.

i feel so small.

so weak.

-forgot my name at 2:36 PM

Thursday, December 24, 2009

because one day i will be gone.

-forgot my name at 8:52 PM

Tuesday, December 08, 2009

she died last night.

-forgot my name at 10:42 PM

Monday, December 07, 2009

2009 sure as hell did not end on any good note at all. all i could think of on my mind these two days is the scene of my rabbit lying there twitching from the pain and shock it had gone through. i do not know if it can still see because it rarely moves and even if it moves, it only makes small little movements from one corner of the box to the other.

it ain't comforting at all even after the visit to the vet. he thinks it's a pretty bad injury and the chances of survival are pretty slim. on one hand, i would be glad for her to pull through even if she might become blind. but on the other hand, i simply cannot bear to see her suffering like this, that's not how it should end. however it might be, we'll just do our best to keep her alive and get well. simply because we owe her this much.

-forgot my name at 9:53 PM

Sunday, December 06, 2009

came back to witness probably the greatest tragedy that has ever happened on my porch.

my dog pried open the rabbit's cage and attacked it. we probably were out the whole time and came back only to see rabbit laying there motionless. my heart sank when i saw her lying flat on its stomach but i was glad it was still breathing, albeit very weakly.

i have no idea how serious the wounds are because i cannot bear to look at it for more than a couple of minutes each time. all i can see is that one eye is bleeding and her body keeps twitching from time to time. probably from both shock and pain.

nobody expected this to happen. dog was leashed up to prevent this from happening, rabbit was caged up. we always knew the dog was interested in the rabbit but we never thought he would attack it like that. she doesn't deserve any of this.

and yes i feel a tremendous sense of guilt for the whole tragedy. because it was i who wanted to bring a dog to this family. i was sure the whole time that no matter how active the dog was, he probably wouldn't attack the rabbit like that and that they could be friends. no matter how much ass whopping he got, he never understood the things that he should or should not do. maybe he'll never understand. maybe it's time for him to find a new home. i'm simply devastated and appalled at the whole situation.

but for now, please don't let my rabbit die on me.
please.
i'm sorry.

-forgot my name at 3:03 AM

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